Yes, I do plan to finish my gratitude project, which I started back in April. The last few weeks have been increasingly stressful with my exam, the passing of my mother-in-law, and now waiting for the results of my exam. The results come out today. To say I’m nervous is a serious understatement.
Today, though, I am going to focus on my writing, and in particular, the therapeutic nature of my writing. In a general sense, I find writing to be the best way for me to get thoughts out of my head and into a medium that is concrete and comfortable. To tangibly see my thoughts in words on a page (or a computer screen) reinforces that my feelings are real; they aren’t just some fleeting and hysterical emotion that has no meaning. Instead, I can look at them clearly, analyze them, and then reflect on them to decide if they are something worth feeling.
Writing out my thoughts also allows me to succinctly share my thoughts with people around me who care to hear and support me. That includes my readers here, as well as my close and supportive friends in real life. When I think about my last blog post, the letter I don’t intend to send to it’s intended recipient, I was able to share it with people I knew would be supportive and they were able to validate how I feel. I’m not always searching for external validation for my feelings, but acceptance and progress requires either validation or a “checking” of thoughts and emotions.
Thankfully, everyone I shared my letter with provided me supportive feedback and validation that what i expressed is reasonable given the situation. That validation, combined with my own ability to review the thoughts on page, has allowed me to finally accept and reach a new level of contentment with the situation. This is exactly what I needed to begin to move forward.
Today, on this extremely anxious filled day, I am grateful for my ability to write and share my thoughts through such a medium. It provides significant clarity and allows me to systematically process and reflect on my emotions. It also allows me to connect with people in a way that I often struggle with. Writing my last post was the most therapeutic thing I have done to help myself move forward in acceptance with regard to such a difficult situation.