“Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us all be thankful.”~Buddha
I like to complain. Actually, it’s not so much a “like of complaining” as it is a fact of my being: I was raised in a household that only ever complained. Therefore, it is only natural that I find something to gripe about in every situation rather than looking at the same situation from the other side. This is the reason why I am always finding myself on the receiving end of unfortunate situations.
Many times over the years this flaw in my personality has been brought to my attention. I have, with variable success, been able to change this perspective and live in a place of gratitude. However, the last few years of residency, and now studying for my exam, have brought a whole new level of struggle and negativity to my life. I am 30 days away from the first part of my exam and I can feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into my old, negative way of existence.
I need to get back to gratitude. I need to see all the good and not focus on the bad. And so, I’ve decided to force myself into seeing the upside to this dark chapter in my life. Every day I will (hopefully) write something about the amazing aspects of my life. Bear with me… there might be some reaching at the beginning. But, I’m certain it will get easier as time goes along.
Day #30 – I am grateful for my husband, who has made it possible for me to pursuit my dream of practicing medicine. He is the one who convinced me to try *one more time* when I got the second rejection from medical school. He’s been here through the 4 years of medical school (and the two kids that came during that time), and then the 5 years of residency (that saw one more child and what seemed like multiple insurmountable challenges). For the past 4 months, he has been working full time at his own job, while basically being a single dad and taking amazing care of our children while I parachute in and out of our lives to work, study, and spend every waking minute of my life preparing for this exam. This chapter of my life would not be possible without my husband and his support.
Stay tuned for more gratitude tomorrow…