How did the meaning of “resolve” come to be?
A firm determination to do something
Two days of wanting to stay hiding in my bed.
Two days of getting into my scrubs and roaming the halls, beeping my chin up from the ground.
Two days of averted eyes, and half-fake smiles, and “how are you doings” with false answers.
Two days of having no one to talk to, and no one to trust, and nothing to say.
I don’t know what makes me keep going, except maybe the thought that I can’t just do nothing.
Resolve is a funny thing… because as hard as it is to rise above the discomfort, I know that I have no other choice.
I must do something, even though I want to do nothing.
Tomorrow will be day number three – another day of resolving to stay strong.