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Day 16: Kintsukuroi

“It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart.”
~Suzanne Collins

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I’m pretty sure this should say that it takes 100x longer to put yourself back together!  Either that, or it took me 10x longer to fall apart than I thought it did…

For the last half of NaBloPoMo, I am going to attempt to be more positive.  No one likes someone who complains all the time.  So, to complement this very accurate quotation, I thought I would reference the Japanese art of kintsukuroi. I learned about this quite a while ago, probably through blogging, and since then I have thought about it often.

As I child, I remember my mom always getting so angry when something fragile would break because she could never glue it back together without it looking perfect.  This gave me the idea, from a young age, that you are never as good as you were before you were broken.  Anytime I got in trouble or got hurt in some way, I just imagined that it made me less “valuable.”  When I came across this Japanese idea of accentuating flaws – because it makes something more beautiful – I suddenly felt so much less “broken.”

I am sure that over the past few weeks (months, even), I have forgotten about this idea.  It only takes a second to drop a beautiful bowl and watch it shatter on the ground.  But to sit down, piece it back together, and bind with with gold – well, that takes much longer.  And in the end, the bowl is even more beautiful than it was before.  I have a hard time believing that I will be better, or “more beautiful” after I have fully recovered from this struggle.  Maybe that’s why I have moments where I am more hopeless than others.  Regardless, I need to spend more time reflecting on how to move forward: I need to find some gold lacquer and piece my life back together.

7 thoughts on “Day 16: Kintsukuroi

  1. Perfection is unattainable and boring. Our scars and wrinkles and experience is what makes us interesting. I have no doubt you will be fierce and wonderful after all this 🙂

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  2. At the conference I was recently at, I learned something important when dealing with patients who are struggling. Help them turn their complaint, their depressed mood, etc into a goal. It’s called “goalification”. Once you’ve re-framed their “complaint” into a goal, help them find ways to make their goal a reality.

    You are already working hard toward achieving your goal of being happy, content, what have you. Keep up the hard work! It will pay off.

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    1. Goalification? Yikes… I don’t think I could do that… another reason I just don’t think family med is the answer either. Ugh!
      Thanks for the encouragement though. I just wish I could see a little more pay off from my hard work… just a bit would be motivating to keep it up.

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    1. Thanks! I definitely like to vent on my blog, but there has to be a balance I think… No one like to hear negativity all the time 😉

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