Every once in a while I have a day when I am “just down.”
That’s it. Down.
I feel stupid, unmotivated, lonely, incompetent, uninterested, and generally unhappy with my life.
I wonder if I’m doing the right things in life. I question whether I made the right decisions, if I’ve trusted the right people, and if I’m ever going to feel truly happy.
I wish I had someone to hug me and comfort me and be supportive or helpful. But I feel like I have no one. And, I don’t even really know what I would need to feel comforted and supported.
Mostly I just feel confused, and lost, and helpless.
The worst part (if there is a “worst part”) is that I don’t know how these days come to be – I don’t know what triggers me to feel this way. Or, maybe I do know, but I know it’s just stupid. Or maybe it’s just a culmination of everything that I feel is wrong in my life.
I wish I knew how to fix things.
I wish I knew how to stop having these downer kind of days.