Well, I am late to the game for this week’s building Rome challenge. But don’t worry, I have been thinking about it all week! I’ve been crazy busy everyday and by the time I have a chance to sit down at the end of the day, I am ready to fall asleep! In fact, I fell asleep while painting my toenails last night and now they have to be re-done!
My goals from last week:
1. Run 4 times.
This did not happen. I did run three times, but I almost didn’t even get that in. I think this just means that 4 runs a week are not practical in my life right now. I always thought I could use my post-call days for running, but I am just way too exhausted.
2. Spend less energy fixating on what I’ve left behind. I think this falls into the theme of this week, which is “finding the good in the bad.”
I don’t think I did a very good job of this. I still often think about the people and the experiences I feel like I’m missing out on. Maybe I’ve gotten a little better at not letting myself dwell on it, but I still think about it all the time. I still cry almost every day too. Maybe I get a 50% for effort on this one?
3. Complete the PALS provider book and pass the course.
Done and Done. No plastic babies died on my watch!
4. Only have one “treat” per day
I did pretty good at this last week. SO far this week, I don’t know if I’ve been great at that. Honestly, I am just hungry/munchy all the time and I don’t know what I do about it…
Goals for this week have been pretty hard to think of. I’m sure that’s probably because I’m feeling so down that I have no motivation to do anything.
As lame as it may seem, I’ll put running 3 times as my first goal (I feel that if I actually write it down, I will be forced to do it).
I’ve also been having more stomach aches recently, and yesterday I was feeling nauseous all day. In my head I know I need to de-stress and relax a little (or a lot). So that can be another goal. I started trying some mindfulness exercises before all my shit hit the fan back in March, and I haven’t done them since. Maybe I should get back on that.
I also want to try and make “me time” some kind of priority in my life. Right now I have been writing every night in a little journal. It is supposed to be a summary of my excitement over my gift project and I was going to give it to K at the end of the month with pictures of all the gifts. However, it has become sort of an emotional dumping ground. We’ll see what bec0omes of it. However, I need to make sure I take some time for myself this week… it is also my birthday on the weekend, so what better time is there to have some “me time?”
So How about I leave it at that for now. Here are my 3 goals for this week:
1. Run 3 times
2. Begin mindfulness exercises again
3. Make time for some “me time” everyday (even if it’s just 10 minutes).