My Building Rome post for this week is one day behind (according to my standards). That is mostly because I have been pretty busy/tired/emotionally exhausted to do much blogging this last week, AND I had to decide between posting my gift updates or the goal updates first (I hardly have time to blog these days, so I can’t justify two posts on one day). Starting work last week was an interesting challenge… in many ways. I’m hoping I can come back later this week to talk about that all in itself, because I think it really deserves it’s own post (and so does Building Rome).
Anyway, here are last week’s goals:
1. Start my job with an open mind and be ready to learn and embrace.
I know this isn’t a very tangible goal. However, I was a little caught off guard with how sad I was about being in a new hospital and new department when I was at my site tour this week. I am still mourning the loss of what I wanted back in “the old life,” so it’s hard to be ready to move on.
I guess since this wasn’t a very tangible goal, it’s hard to say how well I accomplished this. I think I did a pretty good job of showing up, seeming excited, being open to learning, and just going with the flow. However, I did have a lot of internal emotional turmoil to deal with. This was mostly just feeling like things are so different, and wondering why/how I ended up here. There was a pretty big part of me that was also wishing I was doing all the ob/gyn stuff back at my old hospital.
2. Bring all my own food/snacks from home – pack a lunch, and only spend money on coffee.
Check. I guess it was a pretty easy goal to achieve for 2 reasons: 1. Short week (I only started on Wednesday), and 2. The first day there was a BBQ lunch (even though I was on call the first day and I had to pack breakfast/dinner and snacks anyway). It also helps that the hospital food court is in a completely different building from the women’s hospital and when on obstetrics, there is no guarantee that I will be able to get there and get back with food without being paged for something semi-urgent. Therefore, better to just have food close at hand…
3. Have more patience with my kids.
I think I did pretty well with this one. I made a little promise to myself that before I would say “no” to my kids or get angry at them for something, I would take a second to step back and ask myself, “why am I saying no? Is it because what they are doing is really something they shouldn’t be doing, or is it because it’s just annoying me?” If my answer was the latter (which is usually was), I stopped myself from saying anything and just let them be. I think it helped a lot, both with my level of patience as well as with with letting them feel like they had more “freedom” to do things that they felt were fun.
4. Run 4 times.
Nope. Only 3 runs this week. I’m beginning to think that 3 runs might be the most my schedule can handle. We’ll see how things go this week… I’m going to make it a goal for one more week and then maybe it will be time to re-visit and see how I can change it up a little. That being said, I have been doing a lot of stairs at work!
My goals for this week:
1. Run 4 times.
2. Spend less energy fixating on what I’ve left behind. I think this falls into the theme of this week, which is “finding the good in the bad.”
3. Complete the PALS provider book and pass the course.
4. Only have one “treat” per day (I have noticed since I started work that I am always hungry and I always want to snack. I brought a huge bag of licorice to work and put it in my locker. Eating some would be fine, but then I want to go home and eat ice cream or dessert with my kids too)