Today is Day 1.
Yesterday I wrote my medical licensing exam, marking the complete, official end of medical school. I now have two months off before I start residency and I have many many things that I need and want to accomplish before I get there.
The first, and probably the most important thing is that I need to get out of my own head and stop feeling sad and sorry for myself about the fact that I have to move. Yes, it sucks. Yes, I hate it. But, it doesn’t mean that it is a completely bad thing. I have to begin to get excited and motivated to start my new life, despite the sadness and other negative emotions I have about leaving. I think, mostly, I can do that through Journalling ad blogging, which I really haven’t been doing enough of lately. As such, I am making it my personal goal to blog everyday for the month of May. That includes tomorrow. I have found, in the past, when I blog daily, I have more to say and I get out my feelings and emotions in more creative ways. I interact more with my online friends, who often give me better perspective and advice than I get from my real life friends. So, you all have to put up with some daily cranky giraffe for a little while!
The next thing I want to do is get down to work on my “good-bye” gifts. I am making a select few people some gifts, but the one that will take the most work is the one I’m making for K. I have two projects on the go for her. The first, which will take a lot of work, is a three-park cross-stitch set. They are a set of owls that say “Be Happy,” “Be Brave,” and “Be You.” They are each 7″x7″ so if I work on them every day, I should have them done before we move in 6 weeks. The second thing I’m working on is a book/journal that will giver her some insight into the importance she has played in my life as a mentor and friend while I’ve been in medical school. I’ve slowly been working on this for a while and I am still waffling a little about whether I really should give it to her. I figure I will just keep making it the way I want and if I feel like it is right to give it to her, then I will. I’ll keep you all posted…
The other thing I want/need to do is spend some quality time with my kids. Once residency starts, I will be busy busy and 5 years will fly by with me not always being around. My plan is to take some “me time” in the day and then pick them up fro daycare after nap – and sometimes even drop them off later in the morning. I would choose to keep them home every day, but I also need to bring myself back from the top edge of my stress curve – and sometimes 2 and 4 year old boys are not the best way to work on that.
The final, probably the most important, and the least wanted thing that I have to do in sort, declutter and pack my house to move. That means, garage sale, packing, sorting through memories, etc. I think this is going to be even more difficult because I don’t actually want to move… and that brings me back to the first goal I mentioned in this post.
So, blogging buddies, help me out on this 2 month journey! There will be a lot of struggle that I will share. There will be a lot of happiness I will share. However, my goal is that when June 16 comes and I have to say good bye to my life here, I will be ready and excited to say hello to the new life that awaits me!