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Going Under the Knife

It looks like I’m going for surgery.  I’m not happy about this and I am still waffling on whether or not I want to have it done.  I am still dealing with my undiagnosed abdominal problem, 3 months after the fact.  In that time, I’ve come back with normal test after normal test – and I can now add a normal gastroscopy and normal colonoscopy to that list.

Most days I am so nauseous that I have to take the same kind of anti-nausea medication they give to chemo patients just so I can function.  I also have a grumbling low grade* abdominal pain that never seems to go away and likes to get more intense at random times in my day or my week.

*I say low grade pain because I have it so long that I am starting to get used to it.  When people ask me if the pain is getting better, I don’t really know what to say.  I honestly can’t decide if i’m just learning to tolerate the pain better, or if maybe it is improving, somewhat.  Regardless, this isn’t really normal and I want it to go away.  Anyway, the next step in the problem solving strategy is probably a diagnostic laparoscopy.

I know that if I had a real indication for surgery, like I had raging appendicitis or I needed my gallbladder removed, I wouldn’t hesitate to have surgery.  However, surgery doesn’t come without complications, both short term and long term, and I don’t know how I feel about having a surgery for something when I don’t know if it is actually going to help things.  That being said, they’re going to take out my appendix while they’re in there, so it won’t be a totally useless surgery if they find no cause for my pain.

There is also the very unlikely possibility that this is my appendix causing my pain.  I better not say that too loudly because the majority of surgeons would laugh in my face at the mere mention of a “chronic appendicitis.”  I don’t know what I think it of it at all, but right now I am grasping at anything that could explain this pain.  As you can probably tell, I am a little desperate to get an answer, but I also want to make sure I am being smart about things.

Right now I have a surgery scheduled for March 4.  It’s really not that far off so I have to make a decision pretty soon.  Interestingly, over the weekend as I was contemplating not having the surgery, my pain got very intense again and required dilaudid – It was almost back as a reminder that I should do whatever I can to solve the mystery.

I am really torn up about this whole thing… What should I do?

14 thoughts on “Going Under the Knife

  1. I’m sorry this abdominal pain is becoming a chronic issue! That’s one of the most frustrating parts of medicine… the stuff you can’t explain. It sucks even more when it’s happening to you.

    Regardless of whether you decide to proceed with the surgery… good luck!

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  2. I am sorry you haven’t gotten any answers.

    This is going to sound really weird, and maybe you’ve already ruled it out, but I know someone who had “abdominal migraines”. Not sure if that fits your symptoms or not.

    Either way, I hope you get some relief soon.

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  3. So sorry to hear you are atill dealing with this. I can’t even imagine but if it were me I think I would go ahead witht the diagnostic lap hoping for some answers. Best of luck to you!!

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    1. I have talked to quite a few people about this, including two other surgeons whom I greatly respect. It seems like most people think I should get it done. And interestingly, both of these other surgeons (one who used to be a general surgeon before limiting her practice) believe in “sub-acute appendicitis.”

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  4. I almost liked this post but then I hesitated because I certainly do not like the pain you are in. I have found nothing more frustrating than knowing there is something seriously wrong with your body and then being told all of your test results are fine. I really hope they can figure out what this is once and for all and fix you.

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    1. Thank-you! I completely agree with you about the whole “everything is normal” phenomenon. It seems to happen to me all the time!

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