Yesterday I told a little white lie… At least I think it is a little white lie.
This is about the time that we find out about student awards and bursaries. For the past 3 years I have received around $10,000 in scholarships and bursaries each year – this is a lot of money, but not even enough to pay my tuition (yes, I know, us Canadians should stop complaining about our cheap, subsidized tuition). Anyway, I have been keeping an eye on my student fees account and nothing has been showing up. So, I did a little investigating and realized that way back in September, when I filled in the application for awards and bursaries, I forgot to submit the financial needs calculator. Ooops.
They need the financial needs calculator for bursaries so that they can determine which students are the poorest and, therefore, most eligible for free money. If you don’t submit the calculator, you don’t get considered for the bursaries. The really stupid thing, though, is that my financial calculator looks the same every year… I have submitted the EXACT same application for the past three years – and it only changed when E was born – and it showed that I was even more poor because I now had two
parasites kids instead of one.
So, when I realized my mistake, I “re-submitted” it again, got a confirmation email thanking me for my submission and giving me a confirmation number (which is identical to the confirmation numbers from previous years, with the year 2013 instead of whatever other year it was). I then called the student awards centre with some kind of little story that went something like this:
“So I was talking to someone at my university and they said that I didn’t submit the calculator, but I swear that I did right after I filled out the application, I even got the confirmation email.” Of course, they asked me to forward them the email, and I did, but only after changing the “sent date” to the same date that I submitted the application. I’m not gonna lie now… this little act made me feel horrible – I even got a stomach ache… But it worked. The lady was completely stumped. She said she had to talk to a few people and she’d get bak to me. She wasn’t sure if it was too late to put my application into the mix, but she’d see. (And, the pit in my stomach got a little bigger)
She called me today to tell me that they put my application in and that Medicine had yet to do their bursaries… No harm done, I am still going to be eligible. A huge part of me is relieved because the biggest bursary that I get every year, about $8000, comes from the medicine bursaries. The rest I may have missed out on, but those ones change every year anyway. However, a very small piece of me feels really bad about being dishonest: I wasn’t organized enough to get my application in on time and I should be penalized the same as everyone else… but then again, I’m a medical student with two kids – can you blame me for the mall oversight? Not to mention, I am a medical student, with two kids and no money – $8000 is a lot of money! And, since they haven’t even assigned the bursaries yet, no harm done, right?
What do you think? Am I a bad person? Do I even deserve the honour or graduating with a medical degree in 4 months?
Yup. I should probably burn at the stake…