I love that people read my blog. And, I love my dedicated readers.
Every once in a while I get a little spooked about who might be reading my blog. Like yesterday, for example, someone visited my blog and read a whole lot of posts… In one hour I had 45 hits. That is awesome and it gets me excited because it makes me feel like I have something interesting to say. However, it also makes me a little nervous because I suddenly fear that someone I know in real life has “found me out.”
There are only 3 people in my “real-life” to whom I’ve given my blog address. These 3 people, I know, wouldn’t really publicize my blog to other people. However, I don’t really keep it a secret that I blog, and I do blog about my real life, so it wouldn’t take that much effort for someone to find my blog and link it to me if they put enough effort into it. For the most part, I don’t think I’d care too much about people I know reading my blog. There are some very personal things I write about on here, specifically about the psychological challenges I encounter, and I would have to just accept the fact that people I know in real life know those things about me. I put it out there in the public domain, so I guess I shouldn’t care, right?
The biggest problem, as I see it, is that I also blog about people. Real people. Obviously, I don’t expose the people I write about; but if those people were to be the ones who stumble across my blog, they would know it was them. And to be quite honest, there are some people (well, one in particular) whom I would be worried about reading my blog.
Sometimes I’m tempted to find that one particular tag that links all the common posts, and just delete them. Unfortunately (or maybe not), those posts make up a significant part of this site. What does that say about me? Regardless, when I think about removing them, I realize that I shouldn’t. But that doesn’t stop me from thinking about it a week or a month later.
In the meantime, I keep a fairly close eye on my trends: google searches that lead to my blog, patterns in the posts viewed in one day, etc. and there has been nothing yet to suggest that someone I know might have been searching out my blog. And to be quite honest, I think that if the person I was most worried about finding my blog really wanted to read it, she’d just ask me about it.
But I’ll cross that bridge when (if) it ever comes. Perhaps instead of fearing it, I should start thinking about how I would deal with the situation if it arises. What would I say, how would I explain myself, and in the end, would it all really matter? I guess I have to think about how I’d feel if I stumbled across someone writing so much about me (and their feelings towards me) in a setting such as this.
How would you feel?