Never has this statement been as true as it is tonight…
I’ve been craving a really good dessert for at least a week now. I’ve given in a few times in the last little while: a cookie with lunch, chocolate mouse at a luncheon, a donut at morning rounds, a piece of cake at a dinner party the other night. Unfortunately, none of these have been the “exact dessert” that I’ve been needing. I really think it’s mostly a mental thing: Every time I’ve indulged recently, I’ve felt a little bit guilty for breaking my new “healthy eating in moderation” (ahem, diet) plan.
I joined weight watchers in July and my goal was to get to my pre-pregnancy weight (about 20 pounds). I got there by October. So then I thought, why not get to the upper limit of my healthy BMI range (about another 15 pounds). I got there by December. I was going to switch to maintenance at about that point, but then I thought: “Im still breast feeding, I haven’t used up my prepaid membership yet, and I could stand to lose a little more.” So I let loose a little bit, but still tried to adhere to making healthier choices and refraining for indulging too much. And since then, another 12ish pounds are gone (although, I’m sure stress has played its fair share in this). If you’re kind of good at math, you’ll see that I’m almost at the 50 pound mark; and while this was never my original goal, it would sure feel nice to be able to say, “I’ve lost 50 pounds!”
In all this time there has only been 2 weigh-in days where I have not lost any weight: just after thanksgiving and today. I’m okay with that. However, when the scale doesn’t go down, I know I’m walking the tight rope and I need to be more cautious. That being said, I still have this ridiculous craving for a good dessert and part of me feels that it needs to be guilt free. So tonight, I’m doing it. I sent DH out to buy me my favorite non-cheesecake dessert: McCain Deep’N Delicious (cheesecake is my ultimate indulgence, but it has to be the really good stuff otherwise it’s just wasted calories…). When it arrives, I will sit down with a spoon and eat it right from the pan… and I will enjoy it… and I won’t care… And tomorrow, I’ll get back on the wagon, hopefully without the constant urge to shove something sugar and chocolate laden into my mouth. But I’ll worry about that tomorrow.
Tonight I will have my dessert.
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